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Wednesday, March 12, 2008

life...

wad is iit?

is it about having fun?

if so...

why is my life so boring?

i jus simply hate my life...

i js want to start from birth...

i can't get the things i want in life...

lots of thing are missing in my life...

i'm being force to live this life...

i jus can't sleep nor study now...

gg tu fail my test tmr...

no mood to do anything...

sometimes even playing the thing i love...

basketball...

in my 14 years of life,

i jus simply hate it even though there were times when i really love my life...

but overall, i hate it.

my first 5 years of my life were fun?

i really felt the love from my family ...

espically from my grandmother...

then my primary school life was fun...

really enjoyed myself in primary 4...

mdm viya is yet the best teacher i've known...

primary 6 was fun too...

then come to secondary school...

this is when i started to hate my life...

sec 1 was ok...

sec 2...

most of the times,

i'm emo...

at times, i've fun with my classmates...

sec 3...

i really hate it!

i jus wan to die?

i jus dislike my class...

cos...

they are not really my 'type'?

i want to hav a great year in 2008...

but can't...

i always have cca problems in secondary school...

why?

i don't know.

in my life,

i'm also giving up in things i do...

this is so unlike mi compared to primary school...

the only thing that i've improve should be my character and attitude...

i always face and overcome the challenges that i face...

i always tries my best to hand on and be resilience...

but now,

i admit defeat...

i give up...

i don't want to give up,

but...

i've to...

i think this happens because i, myself hav problems...

but i really can't stand my life...

i hate it...

i jus want to start all over again from the day i was born or disappear...

so moodless...

sad sad sad...

i jus feel that my life is controlled by somethin that is not making mi happy...

i know i'm not the worse boy in the world...

but i jus can't take it...

it is jus way over my limit...

is there a switch to being happy or sad?

if there is, i want to switch from sad to happy...

the happinese is dying inside mi...

i'm also dying...

i hate life...

*filled with sadness

basketball ; devoted passion
10:30 PM